Feeling lost and missing drama after my divorce

This may sound odd, but my divorce finally came through a few weeks ago, and although I should be relieved and happy that I can move on, I've found myself a bit lost.

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I'd go further and say that I'm almost missing all the drama and back and forth with my ex. It was all I could focus on for quite a long time.

I literally don't know what to do with myself and have no clue what's next for me.

During my marriage, my time was taken up with babysitting my ex, who was very needy and argumentative. I was always trying to smooth things over with him and keep the peace.

Everything was always about him - he’s unbelievably selfish.

Then we separated and the divorce proceedings cranked up. Of course, he was unreasonable about everything - arrangements for the kids, the house, our finances and more.