(Almost) Working with Mike de Leon

We were both aware that we were dreaming up a film neither of us would get to see.

- Butch Dalisay

It's almost criminal to admit this, given the understandable outpouring of grief and adulation that followed the announcement of film director Mike de Leon's recent passing. But the truth is, I didn't really know him or his work all that well. I'd seen a few of his movies — Kisapmata and Citizen Jake come to mind — but for some reason missed out on the best and most celebrated ones: Batch 81, Sister Stella L, Kung Mangarap Ka't Magising, and so on. I shouldn't have, but there it is, like all the great books I never got to read, because I was busy doing something else.

From the late 1970s to the early 2000s, I was writing scripts for many directors — mostly Lino Brocka, but also Celso Ad. Castillo, Marilou Diaz Abaya, Laurice Guillen, Gil Portes, and Joel Lamangan. (Never for Ishmael Bernal, either, nor for Eddie Romero; they're all gone now except for Laurice and Joel.) Mike de Leon was and remained a mystery — until, on Dec. 30, 2022, from out of the blue, I got this message in my inbox (I'll be excerpting Mike's messages to me from hereon; he typically writes in lowercase but I've edited everything):

Butch,

We've never met but I guess we know of each other.

I just wanted to know if you are interested in working with me on a possible screenplay that I hope I can still turn into a film even at my late age (going on 76, Stage 4 prostate cancer, but still able to function).

I admit I have never seen any of the films you made with Lino, and the only book of yours that I have is The Lavas which I have largely forgotten. But in that anthology book, Manila Noir, I found your short story, "The Professor's Wife" the best of the lot.