Still hold a candle for first true love

I CAN'T maintain relationships.

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OUT IN THE COLD: He can't maintain relationships with other women, he just wants his ex

I’ve been married and divorced twice, I’ve also lived with a variety of other women. But all dumped me in the end calling me “emotionally cold”.My problem is that I fell in love when I was 16 and have never been able to forget my first love. I went to work in Germany on my 21st birthday and she married my best friend while I was away. She broke my heart. It still cuts when I see them together at weddings and parties.

I have a demanding job and lots of interests. I keep myself in shape and get women hitting on me, but I’m not interested. She’s the one I've always fantasised about and truly love.