Keith Saved My Life

IN A STUNNING NEW INTERVIEW, NICOLE KIDMAN OPENS UP ABOUT DIVORCING TOM CRUISE AND HOW KEITH URBAN HEALED HER BROKEN HEART.

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IT was supposed to be one of the happiest days of her life. But in the new book 50 Oscar Nights, Nicole Kidman recalls how she spent the hours following her first Oscar win in 2003 heartbroken and alone. "I went home and ended up ordering takeout and eating it on the floor of the Beverly Hills Hotel," the 56-yearold, still recovering from her 2001 divorce from Tom Cruise at the time, told author Dave Karger. "That's when it hit me. I went, I need to find my love; I need a love in my life. Because this is supposed to be when you go, 'This is ours."

Two years later, she found the man of her dreams in country music star Keith Urban, also 56. "Nicole believes Keith essentially saved her from a life of loneliness," a source tells Star, noting that the Big Little Lies actress was "broken" by her split from Tom after 10 years of marriage. "By the time she got out of that relationship, she was miserable." Keith (with whom Nicole shares Sunday, 15, and Faith, 13; she's also mom to Isabella, 31, and Connor, 29, with Tom) "gave her a reason to believe in love again."