I went to a women's anger retreat to harness my rage

When was the last time you felt angry? Actually, that's the wrong question.

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When was the last time you felt angry — like, a screaming, wailing kind of anger — and really let it out? It’s an early Saturday morning in May, and as I put these questions to myself on the Tube to north London, I draw a blank. I see myself as being pretty in tune with my emotions, yet anger isn't one I ever really experience. Today might change that, I think, and my stomach churns nervously. Google Maps leads me to a very nice but very normal home in a residential area near Alexandra Palace. Yet as I step through the door and am hit with the heady scent of incense and the sound of gongs—I spy a cabinet brimming with gemstones, too—it becomes clear that this place will require me to let go of my cynicism towards all things hip-pie. I'm here for a "women's anger transformation day retreat” run by Love Your Rage, a group of spiritual practitioners helping women harness their fury. I soon realise I have no idea what I've let myself in for. Everyone feels anger, yet it's often deemed an ugly emotion, and studies show that women in particular have trouble expressing it. It's not that women don't feel that rage; at a time when our rights and those of our loved ones are being stripped away, we have more to be angry about than ever. Yet time and time again, research has found that modern women are less likely to express thei