I was sober, now I'm not.I feel...weird about it?

After more than a year of being teetotal, Jennifer Savin found herself with a glass of red. Her emotions have been *complex*

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It was at a wedding over the summer, when a stranger (a renowned boozer) yelled ‘boring’ at me after I turned down a second glass of wine. He was slurring and sweating, but in his eyes, I didn’t have the right vibe.

Before I spent 15 months entirely sober in a bid to reset my mental health and relationship with alcohol, I probably would have caved in under the pressure. I’d have even bought him a shot to prove how fun I am, then drunk more wine until I blacked out and spent the next day riddled with self-loathing and anxiety. Between the ages of 14 and 27, my off switch around alcohol was nonexistent. I drank multiple times a week, without questioning if I even really wanted to. Sundays were always a write-off.