I won't be apologetic about the Botox jabs

LAUREN TAYLOR chats to Irish star Vogue Williams about first wedding doubts, motherhood and whether a fourth baby is on the cards with Spencer Matthews

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VOGUE Williams has lifted the lid on anti-ageing injectables as she approaches turning 40 - saying she wants to grow old "disgracefully" and will be doing Botox "for ever".

The Irish presenter and podcaster says: "By the time I'm 55, I'll be going up and up. As the years get higher I'll be doing more and more [Botox] and I won't be apologetic about it.

"I kind of kept all that stuff under wraps. I didn't really confirm or deny it for so long."

But now, the 39-year-old reveals: "I just feel like, if anyone wants to do something to make themselves feel better about themselves, who cares? You can either grow old gracefully or disgracefully.

The host of My Therapist Ghosted Me with comedian Joanne McNally, and Vogue and Amber, a podcast with her sister, now has three children with former Made In Chelsea star husband Spencer Matthews.

"Years ago I would have been dreading [turning 40 in October]. But I feel more secure in my life... I've heard your 40s are your best years."

In her new memoir, Big Mouth, Vogue reflects back to her wedding day with her first husband, Westlife star Brian McFadden (although unnamed in the book) who she married in 2012.

"On the day, I just remember thinking it doesn't feel right. I didn't feel like ecstatically happy.

"I just felt like there were a lot of things had been going wrong, and I felt like this isn't really the right move.

"I just knew. I just had a feeling," says the TV personality, who rose to fame on Irish reality show Fade Street, later appearing on Irish Dancing with the Stars and Bear Grylls: Mission Survive in 2015, which she won.

Vogue and Brian parted ways after three years.