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Sitting in the hospital waiting room, I felt sick with worry.
At just five weeks pregnant, I’d started bleeding.
Please hang in there, little one, I silently begged.
It was September 2015, and I held my breath, waiting for bad news as the sonographer scanned my tummy.
Then… ‘I can see two amniotic sacs,’ she said. ‘As it’s so early, they’re empty, but there’s a high chance you’re having twins.’
‘Wow,’ I whispered, shocked but happy.
You see, after having my little boy Leelan, then 18 months, I’d suffered three miscarriages.
So the prospect of having two babies at once seemed like a dream come true.
Back home, I told my boyfriend the news.
‘That’s amazing,’ he grinned.
Only, at another scan a week later, things had changed.
‘One baby’s developing, but the other sac is still empty,’ the sonographer said. ‘We call it a missed miscarriage.’
Though disappointed, I was grateful the remaining twin was healthy.
But, eight weekson, I was given shocking news.
‘The other twin’s developing after all,’ the sonographer said. ‘Maybe this baby’s developing slower. I can’t see a heartbeat, but we might be able to at a later stage.’
Stunned, I was on tenterhooks waiting for my next scan.
This story is from the March 16 2017 edition of Pick Me Up !.
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