¿Qué he aprendido de mi transición? No puedo expresar la alegría inigualable que es poder vere realmente como eres. Sé que me veo distinto para muchos, pero para mí apenas comienzo a verme como soy. Es indescriptible porque para mí solo es verme tal cual soy. Y gracias a Dios que aquí estoy. Así que la mayor alegría es solo ser capaz de sentirme presente, literalmente, solo estar presente. Salir con un nuevo grupo de personas y ser capaz de socializar de una manera donde no sienta esta constante sensación de escapar de mi cuerpo, esta infinita sensación de ansiedad y nerviosismo y de querer desaparecer.
Cuando digo que no podía haberme imaginado sentirme así, lo digo en serio.
Mi papá tenía una cabaña en la costa sur de Nueva Escocia sin agua ni luz. Estaba obsesionado con las ranas. Las veía saltar por horas, probablemente por lo diminutas que eran. Me he dado cuenta –de adulto– que lo más crucial y enriquecedor para mí es sentirme conectado con la naturaleza, lo necesito. Cuando estoy en esos espacios, mi cuerpo entero se relaja. Mi estrés desaparece. Puedo quedarme tranquilo.
Pasé mucho tiempo de mi infancia en el bosque.
Cuando era niño, solo quería que mis papás me pusieran la banda sonora de The Bodyguard. La amaba. Y Medusa, de Annie Lennox. Creo que tenía mucho que ver con la portada. Me quedaba viendo a Annie Lennox por horas. La música de mi mamá incluía a Cat Stevens y Sting. The Tragic Hip eran fantásticos. Mi papá tenía un estilo más jazz como Shirley Horn y Ruth Brown.
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