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It’s two weeks before her son Sam’s 10th birthday,and Elizabeth Vargas is smiling at the gift list he’s left on a table in their Manhattan apartment. At the top is basketball shoes and video games, but the item that most excites Vargas is a mother-son visit to Six Flags. Just two years ago another birth-day trip for Sam was ruined by her drinking—the 20/20 anchor drank so much in the Malibu rent-al house she and her sons were sharing that her family had to come and take her to a detox facility. As she recounts in her new memoir Between Breaths, out Sept. 13 (see excerpt on page 73), the incident was a turning point. “All those years when I was drinking, I missed so many moments,” says Vargas, 54. “I made destructive choices that hurt a lot of people.” In recovery since, she admits that she “can’t tell the future—I can just do everything possible to make sure I stay sober. Every day I am exquisitely aware of how lucky I am.”
From the outside her life has always looked lucky. Bright and ambitious, Vargas parlayed a University of Missouri journalism degree into on-air positions at NBC’s Dateline and the Today show before jumping to ABC,where she became a 20/20 anchor in 2004. But inside she struggled with anxiety and panic attacks, which began when she was 6 and her dad, an Army colonel, was sent to serve in Vietnam. “The panic would envelop me, drown me,” she writes. “I was defenseless in the face of it.”
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