Media coach Maggie - 'I'VE KEPT A SECRET ALL MY LIFE'

The former actor shares a traumatic childhood ordeal that led to her helping others

- BABICHE MARTEN, Fleur Guthrie

'You grew up in a devout Roman Catholic household, the only daughter with four brothers. Who were your role models?

The nuns at Marist College in Mount Albert! They were feminists, highly educated, strong women who were radical for their time.

They were my angels and beacons of hope really after a traumatic childhood. I had three nuns who made a difference in my life: Sister Campion, Sister Roger and Sister Basil. These women believed in me, counselled me and were always there when I was depressed.

People often talk about nuns being cruel. Well, my Catholic education was the best thing that ever happened to me.

How was your childhood traumatic?

I was 12 when I was raped by my friend's older brother.

I was staying the night at her place when her brother arrived home drunk.

I always remember him saying, "You want this." I went to school the next morning and told a nun.

Eventually, I shared it with my parents. Those were the days when you didn't tell the police - I was young, ashamed and blamed myself. I forgave my rapist. Now I want to speak out to help other women.

How did that experience change you?

I became rebellious and got into a gang in Kingsland who were doing bad things. We didn't wear patches or anything like that, but the guys carried knives. It was exciting for a good little Catholic girl who wanted a sense of belonging. Then one day, I thought, "This is not healthy," and got out. I've never told people that!

What was your first job?