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He Doesn't Know I Exist, But It's Ok

My cheeks are burning. My heart is racing. My palms are sweaty. Am I in love? No, I’m at a K-Pop concert.

And yes, I’m a fangirl.

How did I get here?

Part of my college life was spent in Australia. This was when I first heard SHINee’s debut song “Replay”. While the world was entering the early years of Hallyu, the folks in the Southern Hemisphere were still pretty chill about it, and my exposure to the genre was limited.

After college, I got a job writing entertainment features for a teen magazine. Hallyu was now a global phenomenon, and I became a walking encyclopaedia for all things K-Pop. And somewhere along the way, my feelings for SHINee morphed into something more ardent.

For some reason, K-Pop fangirls get a lot of flak. We’re often told to “grow up” or “get a life”. But I don’t think being a fangirl is something you’re meant to outgrow.

Yes, I’ve spent hours online, trying to get tickets to SHINee’s concerts (including the ones overseas). Yes, I’ve waited till the wee hours to watch the trailers or music videos for their new albums. Yes, I want to know every bit of information there is to know about them— especially Taemin.

Why him, you ask?

It’s hard to take my eyes off him when he starts dancing. He’s also the kind of guy I would actually want to hang out with, because he’s goofy, funny and always smiling. Sometimes, he makes the silliest jokes and loses his things way too often, but my adoration can withstand that.


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