I’ve always wanted to have kids, I feel like it gives you a purpose in life. When I got married in 2010, I was 39 and we’d discussed having kids in detail. We got married two years after meeting and I wasn’t getting any younger, so I wanted to start trying straight away.
But my husband always had an excuse for why we couldn’t. I was miserable, crying all the time, then one day he told me he definitely didn’t want kids. I’d put all my investment into this guy and having kids with him. After two years of marriage, I’d had enough.
‘I FELT LIKE I HAD NO ONE’
I had to leave him, I had no choice, I couldn’t see myself growing older without a child. So in September 2012, when I was 41, I got a backpack and left. I still had my flat in east London, but I was renting it out, so I couldn’t go back there. You can’t get divorced when you still live together and I needed to get away, so I quit my job.
I’d always wanted to see South America – it’s a whole part of the world I’d never been to – so I travelled to Mexico, Cuba, Uruguay, Costa Rica, Brazil, Argentina, Colombia and Panama.
Crazy idea
I went for nine months, which is ironic, because it takes nine months to have a baby, but I definitely thought my chances of having a child were over.
This story is from the March 30, 2020 edition of WOMAN - UK.
Start your 7-day Magzter GOLD free trial to access thousands of curated premium stories, and 8,500+ magazines and newspapers.
Already a subscriber ? Sign In
This story is from the March 30, 2020 edition of WOMAN - UK.
Start your 7-day Magzter GOLD free trial to access thousands of curated premium stories, and 8,500+ magazines and newspapers.
Already a subscriber? Sign In
Fast&fresh DINNERS
Healthy meals to keep you satisfied on busy weeknights.
Health checks that could SAVE YOUR LIFE
We service our cars and boilers to make sure they run smoothly, so why not our bodies?
FEEL SEXIER in 60 seconds
Try these instant tricks to lift your libido and get turned on fast
Destination SWAPS
Change your favourite resorts for these great-value, lesser-known places
5 steps to the PERFECT HALLWAY
Try these makeover musts to transform the often-overlooked space into an entrance you can be proud of ai
The secrets WE KEEP
Two women explain why they realised it was finally time to speak up
Our split made us STRONGER!
Bernie Jones loves her husband more after their break-up 4
Can our beloved NHS BE SAVED?
With waiting lists for surgery reaching new highs, we investigate the lengths patients are going to in order to receive treatment
WANT TO SEE BEHIND THE CASTLE GATES?
It’s an interesting development that King Charles has increased public access to Buckingham Palace and opened up Balmoral Castle for the first time.
'The divorce SPEAKS FOR ITSELF"
Singer-turned-actor Billie Piper on her turbulent past and becoming the woman she is today