Low self-esteem is something that most of us might have gone through at a younger age. But over time, some of us would have realised the importance of loving ourselves despite what society considers as ‘flaws’ and looking at things from a different perspective. Nandini Balakrishnan, who describes herself as a mathematically challenged writer/video producer, shares how she has learned to love herself thanks to social media.
I’m fat. I am fat. It took me almost 28 years to say those words without feeling like I’m dying inside.
For the first time in forever, saying it felt liberating. It was no longer just a painful reminder of yet another reason why I do not fit into society’s beauty standards.
Today, those words just mean that I’m overweight, which is a situation that I can change easily if I set my mind to it. It doesn’t mean that I’m ugly – body weight and beauty are no longer correlated in my life. IN YOUR FACE, SOCIETY!
I spent most of my childhood and teenage years being afraid of eating in public, terrified that if people see me eating, they’d tell me that I’m fat. And that I shouldn’t be eating so much (not that I was eating truckloads of fried Snickers or anything) but it was still one of my biggest fears, a close second to my ultimate fear of insects. So, for years, wherever I went, I hardly ate. I would take a spoonful of rice here, a tiny piece of chicken there and call it a day. “I’m not hungry. I’m so full,” I’d tell myself. Then I’d come home starving and raid the fridge.
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