My childhood days were spent in Subang Jaya, Selangor where I grew up with three younger siblings. I was a very active kid in school – the captain of the ‘blue house’ team at one point, I did a lot of running and was also selected to become the head prefect.
Looking back, I remember that as a student, achievement meant the world to me. I was so performance driven until Form Five when I set a bad example to the junior prefects because I didn’t score straight As (as expected of a head prefect). Although I still remained as the head prefect, I was disappointed with myself. I didn’t make the grade because I was in the Science Stream, which I chose to take up not out of interest but because of peer pressure.
As a result, I went through a brief period of depression and felt as if I’d lost my sense of identity. It almost felt as if at one moment I was popular because I was good in something and all of a sudden, everything came tumbling down.
That’s when I had a reality check and found God or as some people would say, God found me, and my faith changed. This was also when I realised that as a human being, we have our limitations. Hard work is important but I also accept and acknowledge that there is a greater power that loves me above everything else despite what I do and what I don’t do, and this was when I found a new meaning to life. I’m still performance driven but I’m proud to say that my motive is completely different.
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